I got high as a kite
on year old acid
and aftermath;

Your body is
tumultuous and historic
deeply symbolic
and steeped in rhetoric

Your little hoodrat friend makes me sick.

I am frequently afraid. I get nervous when I think of the near future; when I try to see 10-20 years down the road. I'll be in my 30's or 40's, which could possibly be near the end of my life if things go the way they are. If I completely disregard my health, and continue my eating habits, I could expire after 30 years on this planet. Also, with global warming, and climate change, we could all be forced to change our lives so dramatically that all basic semblance of current life (life in 2010) is extinguished.

check out Gaia.

It scares me too. Because if that's true... then... we're a cancer. We aren't actually a good thing for the planet. Hell, even if its not true, we're still not a good thing. We're slowly moving past the carrying capacity of the planet.

I'm afraid. Seriously Afraid that none of this will matter; that none of what i'm doing with my life will matter when I'm done. It makes me want to recluse myself from society and try my best to eke out a happy existence.